I could blame not posting lately on the fact that my computer has no more memory so therefore I am uninspired without the ability to upload pictures etc. Or I could admit that I just haven't given myself enough time to actually think and write... It's actually kind of nice just waiting at the apple store waiting for my hard drive to be erased so I can sit back and think about the day.

It's funny how in the moment somethings seem tedious but when you think about them later you pick out all the good parts... Well I guess there were a lot of good parts today despite all the waiting around. I got up at 5:00 am to get ready for the Hawaii 5-0 shooting. As soon as I get my bike out I realize I have a flat and attempt to change it in the dark only to realize that the valve is too short! Good thing my friend came along just in the nick of time to use his super fast tire-changing skills to save the day! Although we were told to wear what we wear to races, my sport-friendly bikini didn't quite cut it so they gave me a jersey to wear ( really cute, I wish I could keep it!). Riding out to the "race" we saw Alex O'Loughlin in a restored older Land Rover. He probably looked and smiled at at least three of us girls because we were all talking about it for a while... Race simulation was funny because fast guys were in the middle or the back and we cruised around the block several time at probably 5mph. It was pretty cool to see the actors run through the pack though. We had quite a few breaks and they had great snacks, fruit and energy bars. I was pretty impressed by how much they take care of us considering past experiences with filming or shooting. As I grabbed some of my home-made protein balls, Alex O. comes up to me and starts asking about us triathletes etc. that was pretty cool! I didn't realize he was an Aussie! Very cool guy. More scenes and takes and stunts and lunch. Overall it was a pretty good day, meeting other triathletes and getting paid to hang out! After I threw a mini-fit over the fact that we had to stay in the dungeon rather than go home or film with the other bikers, they let us go home... or rather to Starbucks and get my green tea latte one of the crew members stole. Finally just got to chill on the beach and swim at sunset. Rough life!

I feel as if I am but a drop in a vast ocean
Just a soul floating in a grand abyss
The more I learn, the more I know nothing
The more I search, the more lost I become
I must lose my life to really live, I must become less

turn the world off,

lights and all,

let the stillness settle,

the silence fall,

as the earth goes black,

the stars go bright,

they shoot, they fall, they fly, they shine,

brilliant diamonds in a coal black sky.

-an undisclosed closet poet

"Too often, people want what they want (or what they think they want, which is usually "happiness" in one form or another) right now. The irony of their impatience is that only by learning to wait, and by willingness to accept the bad with the good, do we usually attain those things that are truly worthwhile."
-William J. Bennett

Empty, Empty
You empty me so completely I have nothing left
Only the remnants of the fire that burned
Maybe the condensation in my heart
I have nothing left, but was that the point?
Was the point to show that I can do nothing meaningful on my own?
Only good intentions?

Thirsty, Thirsty
Thirsty for a desire, a passion and inspiration once again
Sweep away the ashes and burn a new flame
Come like a flood and bring new life
I have no more strength so please come quickly
Everything is meaningless without you here
I cannot live by only my good intentions

Saturday KCC Farmer's market

Nalo

"Grumpy"

Holga style

And after...

Thursday On the North Shore

Totoro

Shell filled beach

Me, Mom and Sea Glass

Mom's first Sunrise

Me and Totoro :)

On the way back

Wrapping up the racing season

I finally cleared out my emails which included reading all my active.com articles I have been waiting to read. There was one article that talked about wrapping up my race season, in particular evaluating it, so here I go...

1. The best parts of the season were:
- doing more cycling events, meeting people and pushing myself (castle to hanauma in the wind, tantalus in the rain!)
- winning the Na Wahine triathlon!!! First win ever!!!
- training with Cambio and getting faster (getting my but kicked but kept on pushing!)
- attempting to run track and getting a little faster, improving some fast twitch muscles

2. The Greatest disappointments of my season
- Still lacking good training partners (especially girls)
- I think I could have trained harder and better- specifically targeting swimming and running more

3. If I could change anything about this season I would have
- been more motivated to train, train harder and faster
-eat more greens


4. What I want to accomplish next season
- I want to beat my times
-Do more core workouts
-Get some fast wheels
-Place well in a sprint, olympic and possibly half iron man
-kick butt in Dick Evans and do the Waikiki Rough water the next day (north shore swim series as well?)
- Find awesome people to train with
-minimize injuries and headaches
-surf and dive more?